A tornado without wind

Have you guys had one of those days when you look out into the distant space all you see is just confusion and questions? When the last time you saw something joyful and something where your able to laugh at? I'm having one of those days today. Honestly its a day where a lot of questions of honest truth comes into play. What do I truly want to do? What is something I MUST do? What I am doing right now, is it really the right time to be doing what I am doing? Who knows... I don't even know myself. But if I got something to do, if I got something I MUST finish, then I don't have time to put my head down... no I don't... I MUST look forward. If I can't live in the present, then I can't live in the future. If there is no future, then there is no present and no longer will I be here.

I want to live beyond my imagination. I want to live to my fullest, yet I feel like whenever I get close, I always fall.

The more I get near, the more I'm struck with fear. I start to myself, the real ME, reflected back when I stare into Your eyes. I'm sorry God, but honestly, You are way too good to me. And THANK YOU SO MUCH FOR EVERYTHING

If we set sail in the darkness, of the night, out to the sea, to find me there, to find You there. Love me now, if you dare.

But you did dare to love me, in fact, you died to show that you do love me. And now its my turn to show you that I want to love You genuinely. Bring me back into your arms Lord, bring me back to the First and the Last, and what it means to truly live the extravagant life.

I need You and want You to be my King forever. But more than just that, i just want to get to know more and more about You Lord. So please, don't hide Your presence from me, instead meet me here tonight and become my dreams, so that I'll be calling Your name. You are my love, my love...